2 Years 2 Months 14 Days.

The youngest & most pampered boy. Thank You.

She's gone.

2 Years, 6 Months, 25 Days.

I can never thank you enough for your company.

冒险家

我从来不是个冒险家。
我在不知不觉中做成了偶然的非职业冒险家。
我有可能即将再次去探险； 路途很遥远。
我需要的不只是好运。

如果你爱我
——————————————————————————你会来救我
————————————你会知道我


快不能活

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


Personally I think this is a very well written song, it might be very direct, almost like just reciting out your thoughts, but it's [oh so apt~]. I mean seriously this was written for me to think about my secondary school graduation and of course poly too.

Just 2 days ago, I met up with my SJ friends for my beloved Maa Maa~'s 21st birthday, and it was a pleasant surprise, it was like a mini gathering for the few of us SJ people. We went for a chilling session after the party ended and chat till 3am. Boy did we have a lot to talk about, even when I was just being a listener I was glad I stayed on. Initially I wanted to go off due to my imcomplete office work that had to be due early next morning, but staying on was a decision I'll never regret, truly thankful for having this bunch of friends back with me again, in this phase of my life where I thought some of them have drifted faaaar away....... Though I think this post will never get to them coz none of them knows i actually have a blog and I have no intention of informing them, but just really thankful for having them with me in a current struggling process of my life.

From Ayu

This year I have a wild aspiration.
Actually last year, I had went for a ear inspection, and found out that my left ear has gone deaf and it's not treatable anymore.
Even so, I still wish to be a singer.
Thus, I will use the rest of my right ear to sing till it loses its function as well or till its very limit.
I will not give up.
I will not find any excuses.
As a professional singer, I will definitely give the best singing that I have to everyone.
Ganbatte.. Though I dislike such words.
Must ganbatte!!!! Must!!!!!!
Till that day arrives...

えっと。。。
No.205 2008年01月05日 (土) 1時13分

Hmm..
There's a lot of replies coming from everyone.. and even till now it's still not stopping yet..
Hmm.. regarding that... yes..

No matter when I will always try my best, using my own language to express all my thoughts and feelings to everyone.. I guess everyone should be able to understand me.

Yea, this is how I believe it.
Therefore, I decided to write it.
This has been kept secret in my heart.. without even telling my family and staffs whom I love..

No. Strictly speaking it's not like this..
I had only told mama about this. (Her godmother)
Regarding the fact that my left ear had completely lost its function..

Wanted to go to the hospital because I truly felt some changes in my ears..
Although I kept telling those around me that it's due to some new changes in the earphone..
Honestly, when the doctor told me it's not treatable anymore,
that it's too late, my mind just went blank.

Funny that somewhere in my heart I thought that if I took some time out to do the operation, it will be cured.
But I was wrong.

I can still remember the firm look on the doctor's face..
A pitying, very sorry look.

Therefore, I laughed.
Even though I dunno why, but I continue to laugh.
I said this and I laughed.
I quietly returned to my ward, surrounded by my beloved staffs.
However, please do not view what I'm going to say next in a pessimistic way.

I had accepted the fact.
Furthermore I'm not feeling despaired, instead I saw the light of hope.
Hope everyone could understand.

Reason being, didn't all of u said u want to become my left ear?
Didn't everyone said that in order to let me hear it, you will cheer for me even louder?
Correct?
Thus, I have to move forward together with my right ear-san.
I'm not forcing myself.
Because to me that's a happy matter.

Pleae do not worry!!!!!!!!!!!

From today onwards I will continue to move forward like this~~~!!!!
Yes, let's move on together!!!!!
I want to show u the dream
it wouldn't end, wouldn't disappear..
I want you to have such a dream.
That is my wish.
Thanks everyone... all of u... all of u...
Thank you mama (godmother)
Thank you,
my most beloved sister (Note, should be referring to her recently passed away sister, Natsuki)

Let's walk together 10th anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I know she has gotten over it and has learnt to accept it, she's a truly strong person physically, mentally and in any other ways I can think of. Well, I'll still look forward to her every performance just like I used to and this feeling will never change. It has made me even surer that she's this one person that I'll want to keep supporting and respecting. She's not just a passer by in my life, she stepped into my life and walked an unforgettable journey with me. If I ever get to meet her or watch her live in person, I'll cheer as loudly as I can for her, so that when it reaches her I want it to sound as sincere and loud as her hearing through her both ears.

To my Friends

Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And you, my friend, will see
You've got a friend in me
(you've got a friend in me)

Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don't like what you find
There's something you should know
You've got a place to go
(you've got a place to go)

I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
I used to say "I" and "me"
Now it's "us", now it's "we"
Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(a friend) Like Ben
(like Ben) Like Ben

A song I really like, and it popped up into my head suddenly, so I decided to post the lyrics here. It's a very nice song I sincerely find it so, too bad I don't have the mp3 for it. Anyone who doesn't know this song can just do a quick search. It's originally by Michael Jackson, even if you guys don't like him, give this song a chance. To all my Bussies and friends, this song really speaks well of friendship. The true meaning of FRIENDS is really just as simple as this.